I am so Screwed man..

I am so screwed.
My brain is so Screwed up.
I just CANT seem to remember anything!
THIS IS CALLED..F***
my pharmacy test is on tuesday, and i just cant seem to remember anything facts that i've just read.
Am I doing too much Maths that i just cant simply memorise facts?
It has to to logically flowing before i could catch them?
oh my!!
i am so screwed!!
i som-pa man.. i am not going to take memory-needed subjects next time.. if possible..
However, after stating that, i find it impossible to not to take memory-needed subjects..
Can anyone tell me if there are any subjects where i dont have to use my brain?!
oops..nope!
Argh!!!
i am ranting, yet again...
i should just spend more time on pharmacy then on my comp..
what the hell..
nowicant think logically...
getting nore and more incoherent..
WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO MY MEMORISING SKILL!!!!
I WANT THEM BACK!!
back in my secondary school days, i could memorise my social studies and history facts at my fingertips.
I had superb memory..
as i grew older and fatter..
i just cant seem to remember anything that needs to be remembered by heart..
i cant remember my Chemistry formulas and Chinese literature facts when i was in JC..
but surpisingly, i could remember my Maths formulas... which is even harder to remember than that 2
i guess i just have a mind that doesnt work with many words and more words
things that are illogical and incoherent to me are just trash that i dont even need to think about!!
what is happening!!!

argh!!!!
stop ranting!!!

by the way...

by the way..
i forgot to mention something...
my mother...
that night when i had my fair share of vomit and diarrhea, my mother actually cleaned my vomit up...
so wei da man!!
i almost puke again when i saw my vomit...
but mommy put on plastic gloves immediately and started cleaning away...
wah...
will i ever be such a wei da mother?!
i hope so!!
love you mom!!

i know ok!!

yayaya...
lack of updates and stuffs..
kinda busy..watching tv and stuffs..
by the way..
got semi-hospitalised on monday super morning..
due to..
guess what??!!
FOOD POISONING!!!
after eating ICHIBAN at DHOBY GHAUT..
please boycott that shop from now on..
dont what e hell i've eaten..
the sushis were not fresh i think..
coz i remembered eating one sour deep impact...
oh my..
should i remind you guys how the vomit looked like?
it looked like piles of shit that are light brown piled together and watery as if your big intestine has lost it's ability to absorb water!!!
vomitted 4- 5times..
lost count..
it was totally disgusting..
so DISGUSTING that i wouldnt want to think of it anymore..
should have taken a photo of it to show you how ER XIN it was...
YUCK!!
but anyway..
i was super uber dehydrated...
need to go on drip...
2 packets some more!!
from 4.30 am dripped till 10 am...
5.5 hrs!!!
so bloody long man..
after that hospital trip..
by the way..
it was vomit+puke+fever...
after that hospital trip, i could go home because i didnt want to stay in the hospital..
gives me nightmares...
you know..
you wouldnt when the person next to you might die..
the though of sleeping next to a dead persone of sleeping on the bed someone died on...
sends shiver down my spine..
NO!
no staying in hospital..
so, anyway..
my father fetched me home..
oh ya...
daddy ACCOMPANIED me all the way from the trip to hospital to back home...
this = losing his precious sleep..
LOVE YOU DAD!!
anyway..
got home..
still having fever..
fell asleep..
slept like a pig..
EK came..
as always...
caring and loving..
*love you too eng keat!!*
ya..
accompanied me till he has to go for tuition reluctantly..
not because of me!!!
but because of that tv show on monday..
bad boys 2 i think..
ya..
that's my story for the day!!

BTW!!!
I 'VE UPLOADED PICTURES TAKEN ON VANESSA'S OUTING!!!
GO CHECK IT OUT..
WWW.WEBSHOTS.COM
my username is mirandalse..
dunno how to log in...
can go find out..

so..
that';s all!!!
till we meet again!!

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!!! IMPORTANT...

PLEASE READ THE POST ON ILLYA'S BIRTHDAY GIFT...
280607...
JUST UPDATED....
BUT SOMEHOW IT WAS SAVED ON THAT DATE...
PLEASE GO READ..
ESPECIALLY VANESSA GOH GEK ZER...
YOU MUST READ..

I'mBack

OHMY!!!
when was the last time i blogged??!!!
EONS AGO!!
anyway, life's good...BETTER than ever..*see the sarcasm there??!!*
i should put up my Pics there..in case some of you are missing me...*OHhh..*
by the way, many things happened for the past few weeks...
for example...
1) Quarrels with Eng Keat
2) Making new friends.. ie Clare baby
3) Trashings
4) Decision- making
etc etc etc..
talking about desicion making...
i wanted to go for this Work and Travel USA program organised by some external organisation..
however.. after long long long discussion with myself..
i've decide..
NOT TO GO..
reason because..
this program would actually take place next year during the long vacation..
we would have to work for 2 to 2.5 months..after that, 30 days to travel in States..
this would be around 3 months to 3.5 months..
that means i would have to leave Singapore on May and be back by Mid-August..
which means to say..
i will have to miss SCHOOL...
miss my piano diploma exam...
miss piano lessons with my students...
miss my family...
miss Eng Keat *eventhou ek agreed to go with me*
and most of all...
miss SO MANY 21ST BIRTHDAYS!!!!
nonononono!!
bad decision!!
SO..YA...
i wouldnt be going...
however!!!
i will consider going on this trip after my 3rd year..
*cross finger that i can move up to 4th yr just to have more experience..*
anyway!!
yeah!!
birthday parties will STILL be on NEXT YEAR!!!
yeah!
anyway.. this work and travel program is not free.. i have to fork out $3000-$4000 to work there as some cleaner of the amusement park..
or chamber maid
or kitchen helper
or nature park tour-guide*something to that extend*
or..ya..basically something like that..
sounds ridiculous right??
but people like me are willing to go..
all because we are going out of our comfort zone to view the cruel and merciless world...
something that we have yet to experience...
i wonder how it feels like to be the minority..
i wonder how it feels like to be ordered around..
i wonder how it feels like to live in a foregin land..
i wonder how it feels like to be out of the frame that we are always in..
i wonder..
it is not that we dont get to see or feel when we are in Singapore..
but in any case, we could still have a home to seek solace, to complain and to lament...
out there, we are on our own..
young, youthful, ambitious, fun-loving, adventurous...
lonely...
we dont get that here!!

anyway...
too much writing..i guess i just like to explore things that are out of my comfort zone..
not everything..but some things are worth the risk and attention...

alright!!!
i guess i have written enough...
await for my new post!!!
Ciao..

PS: i wanted to go to National Yellowstone Park for my work experience..but i guess it can wait till i am done with year 3!!

I AM BACK!!!

SORRY FOR MIA-ING FOR TOOOOO LONG!!!
anyway...
i am still very much the same as before...
minus the weight..
up to date...
i have lost 12 kgs!!!!
oh my!!!
anyway..
will upload my pics real soon i hope..
but the process to upload is REALLY long and draggy..
BUT!!!
i will try my bestestest to upload my pics soon..
when i am free...
but i doubt so i guess...
with tutorials and projects coming up..
hohoho..
i hope i can squeeeeeeeeze time out to sleep...
*cross-finger...praying..*

anyway..
my timetable for this semester is..
shitty+not-so-shitty=alright..

i've got one free day..
which is MONDAY...
no school on Monday=long weekend= Sat+Sun+Mon no school=packed Tuesdays..
alright..
my lesson starts at 8AM in the MORNING... on tuesday..
and it will end at 9PM..mind you...is PM= POST-MORNING *just kidding..*
PM=post-mortem

with only 3 hrs break in between..
who's timetable can be as crazy as mine??!!!

MANY!!
I've go a friend who starts lecture at 10am...no break till 9 pm...
MISS CLARE LIM...
super...shiong man!

anyway..
i am so drained now..
i guess i have to start bring my camera out to take LOTSA LOTSA pictures...
to show-off my new clothes and figure..
haha!!
anyway..
gotta sleep...

have fun!!

lazy...

alright!
took many photos these days..
but, as you know...
laziness is my middle name...
on top of that uploading pictures take a FREAKKKKKIIIINNNNGGGGG...
long time..
so, i am kinda lazy to upload my pictures..
there are many self-indulging moments on cam....
cam-hogging all day long man!
anyway... will update soon..
*cross-finger and pray...*
so...
blog again some time later!!!!!

by the way...
I LOVE BIDDING!!!!
IT MAKES ME SICK!!!!
OH...
BIDDING MAKES ME BAHHHH...
I LOVE NUS...

alright!!
that's all...